Status Unknown

It’s been 2 weeks since I started my schooling at Adamson University. Well, its not that I hate the place,for me to feel so down. I do have friends already. I just usually find myself wandering the school grounds, or sitting at the stairs, staring around the university grounds. Its not that I really am school-sick or just because I’m so plain dramatic.. Maybe I just ample needed the time to start writing the usual verses, just like back in high school.

Okay, so here goes. (By the way, for the first time people who would read these kinds of stuff I write, don’t infer that I’m hopelessly romantic? It makes you sound so all-knowing coz you’re right)

 

Ruthless, and cold down to your core

Havin’ no one to love you more

Emptiness you have in store

Has kept you crying, red eyes sore.

 

Seven-fold I try to hide

The bitter feelings still inside

Coz no matter how hard I cry

It’s you that always made me smile.

 

The days went by, yet I still amiss

That Monday night I kissed your lips

Overwhelmed, was that all this?

Or just a mem’ry saved for keeps?

 

He keeps me hanging, I throw a sigh

Lookin’ around from side to side

He sees someone, and now he’s high

It urges me to say goodbye.

 

 

The problem is, I would admit

To see him, I just can’t resist!

Despite being good, I can’t insist

Sweet intimacy that doesn’t exist.

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Of All These

Need to laugh.
Need to cry.
Need to breathe.
and need to sigh.

Of all necessities in life
can LOVING you, be set aside?
(just this one time, let me be fine?)

Need to build.
Need to grow.
Need to plant.
Need to sow.

Of all these feelings that I know
Can the hurt inside me need not show?
(fresh from the day you said you’ll go?)

My To-Do List This 2011

So many things we say, but not all them are put to action.
Aren’t we tired of doing the same thing every new year’s eve? Well, I am.
And because of this, I thought of the things I shall cross off, as I go through my 2011. :)

1. OVERCOME MY FEAR OF MATH.

How? : BY GIVING AMPLE TIME TO REVIEW MATHEMATICS, AS I DO WITH MY CHEMISTRY SUBJECT.

I cant rememeber when was that time that I aced my Algebra examination in high school. I totall flunked
that subject. Kaya naman when I got 1.75 in College Algebra last semester, I suddenly saw hope for my
slowly deteriorating left brain. That is why, before I choose to shift or transfer, I shall overcome Trigonometry.

2. BE FIT.

How? RUN AROUND MAYSILO CIRCLE, MAYBE? PLAY BADMINTON? HAVING SEX IS NOT AN OPTION.

(it makes you fit daw eh).

From being the thin, night shift geek that I was, to the real life Snorlax that I feel I am now, I really am a disaster.
I didn’t want the boobs. All I did this vacation was, eat, read a little, and sleep. At least my eye bags never had the chance to get worse.

3. HAVE TIME FOR MYSELF.

How? TAKE SHORT WALKS AT THE PARK EVERY WEEKENDS, LIKE THOSE OLD PEOPLE AT BAYWALK.

I dont think I need to sit in yoga class, to keep myself calm and be “one with the Force”. A Saturday morning
walk at the park would be very nice, so I can be with myself and my thoughts.

4. TAKE MY LOVE FOR CHEMISTRY “TO THE NEXT LEVEL”

How? Be with Raymond and Eugene all the time. Start flirting with John would be a plus.

They’re my Chemistry books. Hahaha. Hope you dont think I’ll be that GC and stuff. I just want to boost up my fascination for Chemistry :)

5. DO WELL WITH THE JOB I JUST ENTERED.

How? Follow the advices of my mom, and my uplines.

6. CONTINUE TO WRITE, WRITE AND WRITE.

How? Read books on writing, read poetry again, and converse with lots of people.

From the moment I wake up, and before I call it a day, my mechanical pencil and my journal are my “bed partners”
Ahahaha! I shall not cease writing and expressing myself.

7. I WANT TO FALL IN LOVE AGAIN.
How? Should I say it? Haha. Let’s just keep that for myself.

8. HAVE BRACES

How? Well, I can start saving now!
I have been complaining about my teeth for some time now. I want to get that geeky look of mine.

9. BE A MORE RESPONSIBLE SON, AND CARING FRIEND.

How? Just read on below

Back in high school, I have been super emotional, driving friends crazy when I got drunk on my way home.
I vow never to let that happen. Besides failing for God, the second worst thing is being a failure to my
parents, especially to my mom. I will change that!

10. BECOME CLOSER TO GOD EVERYDAY.

In my troubled times this year, when I feel being on my knees and praying, He never failed to rescue me.
And now here I am, saved for another year to be with the ones I love. It feels different to feel alive again.
And from that day on, I promised myself, I will get closer to Him every single day. :)

You see, these aren’t the only things that I want to do, or change with what I have now. :D It comes with time.
And it takes one initiative to get us moving.
How about you? what will you do next year? :)