For convincing myself has been harder lately,
Without you near,
Distant from me lately
I need reassurance
To get myself by.
For the shadows of the past linger on,
While you’re away
I miss your embrace
The confidence it gives
To risk another try.
Keep me awake, just one more sip
Repressing things I hide too deep
The downside has been way to steep
The nightmares I get in my sleep.
My eyes dilate, my heart beats fast
And I flip through the pages past –
The hauntings that left me aghast
And memories I wished would last.
Should I settle for just one more?
This addiction rooted to the core
Has left me longing, like before
Though biiter tastes have left me sore.
Keep me awake, just one more sip
I stop the tears I try to keep
This has dragged us way too deep
And I should grab myself some sleep.
Its been three years since I wrote this poem. Actually, I decided to post it here in my WordPress site, because I started compiling my old poems from my Multiply Site, which I plan to deactivate next year.
Here goes:
I learned a lot, from the guy of sixteen
from the moment he entered my life’s silverscreen
His stories, nice, both from here and afar
While mine were daydreams and wishing upon a star
He taught me to calm, this playful heart of mine
With his corny jokes ev’rything turned out fine
Whenever I’m down, he would share his smile
And i find my afternoons seemingly worthwhile
But then there were times, I felt he was ‘cold’
Simply telling me– emotions must not hold
Because he’s not mine, yes, not mine alone
And I say this, my friends, in a contented tone.
Time would come, that he must too, go away
Like the summer sun, it must shine another day
I do not know when, I do not know how
But i am very sure to say
That this guy of sixteen became a close one to me.. today.
TIDBITS 